Another Love Story " ABORTION "

I was 15 at the time when I thought I met the boy I was going to spend the rest of my life with but that all changed very fast.
Eight months into our relationship he cheated on me. I was devastated! I cried myself to sleep for nights. He was not only my boyfriend but my best friend, I never knew love could hurt so much until that day.
I loved him so much I forgave him. Nine months into our relationship I found out I was pregnant. But I wasn't disappointed because we both wanted to have a baby together. But he cheated again. He hurt me so bad I thought the only way I could keep him was to keep the baby. I was soon four months pregnant, my mom found out but worst of all was my dad found out too. I felt like I let them down.
I thought about everything and how stupid I was to think he was going to change and that he really loved me. I came to find out the best thing for me was abortion. It was the hardest decision of my life. I soon broke it off between me and him, he begged me to be with him, of course but I knew what was best for me and, yes, I loved him more than anything but I had to move on with my life and it hurt so bad.
Now I am 18 years old and he now has a baby by another girl, and I wonder all the time what it could have been like if I would have kept my baby and it hurts me everyday.. 

I'm Wrong

Through my whole life I have always wanted to find that one special person. My companion. I didn’t date a lot because everyone else around me wasn’t looking for the same thing I was looking for. Now I am seventeen years old and I think I have finally found a mind that thinks alike.
But my family thinks I'm wrong. Only because of one thing. AGE. He is twenty-four years old. He has showed me things that I thought I would never find. But my dad thinks I'm wrong. I think we will be together for a long time. Even if my dad tries to keep us apart he can’t stop love and after I turn 18 he can’t do anything about it. My mom and dad have been divorced for years and that’s one thing that he has never really had is love. I think he is jealous because we have what he has always wanted. Love. He is deaf and abused me when I was little and I finally have someone to care for me and that makes him so angry. Rage is but mask for my shy fears. Yet I would die before I caused my companion pain.
I just hope he knows that no matter what my family tries to do to tear us apart I will never stop loving him. We have been together since I was 16. I might have to wait till I’m 18 to be with him but waiting only makes my love for him even stronger. Romance must have a language fit for feeling more than fits between the earth and sky.

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You'll discover that real love is millions of miles past falling in love with anyone or anything. When you make that one effort to feel compassion instead of blame or self-blame, the heart opens again and continues opening..Distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there. But whenever I start feeling sad cuz I miss you I remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss

ܔܢܜܔFoReVeR LoVe(๏̯͡๏)

The first time I laid my eyes on you I knew, that we'd spend this life side by side I still feel the same though you are so far away I swear that you'll always be mine, forever love I promise you someday we'll be together forever love, I wont give up no matter what I'll be waiting for you forever love.Minutes and hours and years may go by but my heart knows nothing of time so dont cry just keep me right there in your dreams and hold onto these words of mine.Forever love I promise you someday we'll be together forever love I wont give up no matter what I'll be waiting for you forever love is the road to our destiny nothing can change what is meant to be forever love no I wont give up no matter

what I'll be waiting for you forever.

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Wo Chand Chup Gaya Muje Raat Sooonp Kar, Ankhon ko Intezaar Ke Lamhaat Soonp Kar

Ek Shahks Tha Jo Muj se Bicher Gaya, Ankhon Ko Meri Mosam-e-Barsaat Soonp Kar

  

Things WithOut You...

I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, I was dreaming, for her I was Feeling, so I had to take a little ride, back tracking over these few years, trying figure out what I do to make it go bad, cause Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashing Can't believe I had a girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put you through you still stuck.Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke your heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I Really wanna make things right, cause without you my life is so lonely !

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It hurts to breathe because every breath I take proves I can't live without you.

To fall in love is awfully simple, but to fall out of love is simply awful.A life with love will have some thorns, but a life without love will have no roses.Reject your sense of injury and the injury itself disappears.The greatest pain that comes from love is loving someone you can never have.Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.The stupidest mistake in life is thinking the one who hurt you the most, won't hurt you again.The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.Love is unconditional, relationships are not.For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, It might have been.

   

{?} Love & Anger {?}

A Man was polishing his new car. His 6 years old son picked up a stone & scratched lines on the side of the car. In anger, the man took the child's hand & hit it so many times, not realizing that he was using a wrench.

At hospital, the child lost all his fingers due to multiple fractures. When the child saw his father with painful eyes he asked " DAD when will my fingers grow back? " 

Man was speechless and very much disappointed. he went back to car and kicked it hard. Devastated by his own actions, sitting in front of that car, he looked at the scratches. child had written " LOVE you DAD". The next day that man committed suicide!!

Anger and love have no limits, choose the love to have a beautiful & lovely life.

!!..... Walking Out

Watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me bitter or cynical about love, but rather,
it has shown me that if I wanted so badly to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along.

Every Morning i Think ....

I gazed at the sky thinking about what we had and what could have been. To believe we were going to last forever was impossible to think, but I did. Now I am left with a Broken Heart. Even though what we had wasn't real, the Pain and heartbreak you put me through was completely real. But even after what you did to me, every morning when I awake I ask myself, will my heart burn with desire for your love? Will I die if I don't feel your touch? Will my lips burn if I don't feel your lips touch mine? Because my Heart's one desire was and still is your Love

Hurt Me Again

All i seem to think about is you, I sit here and try not to cry. Everyone is asking me why, why am I so dam depressed. I say it's nothing, but they know it's something. You are the reason!!! I love you so much, but it hurts so bad, to know that I can't have your tender touch.
My days n nights are so lonely, I think I might be going crazy. Your love is the only thing I need in this world, and without you I'm not whole.
I hate seeing you and not being able to be with you, I hate to see you laugh, cuz I know I am hurting so deep inside. Why should you be happy when I can't even laugh without you popping in my mind. My laugh turns to tears......... Why can't I get over you?
I need you in my life, my world seems so blue. Nothing makes me happy anymore. You took your love away, and I fell apart! but it seems like you don't even care! So why sould I?
I wish I could just forget about you, I hurt you so now I guess you have to hurt me.

( i. Lost. Everything.)

i dream about you and i lost my breath, i saw you and i lost my nerve.

i gave you my heart and i lost my hope, i gave you my love and i almost lost my life. ~ I Lost Everything ~ 

Ek Lamha ..

Ek Lamha Meri Zindagi Veeran Kar gaya
Aesi Hawa Chali ke Sunsaan Kar gaya

Chalta tha jo mere saath satth Saaye ki Tarah
Bichra wo is Adaa se ke Hairaan Kar gaya

The Ring /Ove Suckss .....

A girl was sitting on a chair at the gas station she worked at. She looked up and saw her boyfriend walk in. As he was looking at snacks, a man walked in and pointed a gun at her. He had been admiring her ring her boyfriend had given to her as a token of his love. When he asked her to give it to him, she said no. Her boyfriend looked up just in time to see her shot. He ran over to the killer and beat him over the head with a hammer that was for sale. Then he ran and called 911. When the ambulance came, he was sobbing uncontrollably near his girlfriend.The doctor came over and felt for her pulse. Then he stood up and said she was still alive.Later at the hospital, as he was sitting beside her, he asked"Why didn't you just give him the ring?" and then she softly spoke"Because when you gave it to me, you said it was part of your love for me and I knew if I gave him the ring, I would lose that love." The next day, she was pronounced

The. Perfect. Gift.

Love is always building up. It puts some line of beauty on every life it touches. It gives new hope to discouraged ones, new strength to those who are weak. It helps the despairing to rise and start again. It makes life seem more worthwhile to everyone into whose eyes it looks. Its words are benedictions. Its every breath is full of inspiration

Our Dreams (__)

As I look back on all that's happened.. growing up,

growing together, changing you, changing me -- there were times when we dreamed
together, when we laughed and cried together. As I look back on those days, I
realize how much I truly miss you and how much I truly love you. The past may be
gone forever.. and whatever the future holds, our today's make the memories of
tomorrow. So, my lifetime friend, it is with all my heart that I send you my love, hoping that you'll always carry my smile with you, for all we have meant to each other and for whatever the future may hold ...

And i try with all my might, not to make the wrong decision...****

My life is so confusing at the moment, due to a number of different things...I am fighting with myself, to amek the right decisions, but what really is a right decision? How do i know it is the right decision? 

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sorry about this being a very similar photo to yesterday, but they represent how i am feeling at the moment... i dont feel like talking about my day like usual either... 

                                         THE ATHEIST 

 

                                                                                      

                                                                                                                     

...>>> Dont make promises that you cant keep...

When people are in love, they say stupid things like "i promise i will love you forever" when no one knows what the future holds. I however, always choose my words carefully, as i have been hurt in the past, not my gal friends, but just by people... My galfriend knows the reason why i never say things like that, and he is careful not to say them to me, as i dont like when people make promises like that....

___________________________________  THE ATHEIST

{ Does love solve everything } ? ?

People say, love solves everything... Maybe....But sometimes, it just makes everything worse... People all around me are being destroyed by love, is that really what love should be like?

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Right, so all around me, my friends are being destroyed by love or something related to it... Me, at the moment, i am happily in love, but it has made me realise that i wont be like that forever, that one day, it will just fall all to pieces....

THE ATHEIST

....>>> My Lonely Path ! !

In a silent boulevard of broken dreams

I searched in vain for an identity

The stars above dimming my gaze

But the moon is guiding me with glee

Joy on earth I found nowhere

Neither life took me anywhere

Happiness turns a grim face to me

Living in this world is hard to see

Finding among this madding crowd

Although can’t find a friend for me

But I can only see the never ending path

Like an autumn with a single tree

Don’t know where is my destination

Or something I have left behind

For my path is as gloomy as the mist

May be it’s ‘my identity’ I can’t find 

THE ATHEIST

ECHOES OF DESPAIR . . . .

"Pain is self-inflicted, cause is not

I long for my time, long before its due

tired of resting in despair
Judge me for who I am
relieve me for what I am
Remember me for what I was
Forgive me for what I became

Where shadows speak of memories

I stand alone in my dark and lonely world
surrounded by this cold embrace of temptation
White bewinged angel of light
tempts me to change my life
come, come to me, she whispers
longing eyes, she stares through my soul and mind
wants me to become one of the light

ah, serpent of lust and lie, where will my path go?

Should I be tempted by the light or should I remain in darkness

all alone, all alone.....

Why all this sorrow, why all this confusion?
I was one of thee, why am I left behind?

Hate - fills my mind
Sorrow - breeds my life
But of those I choose, no one is sent out from you
My way will be long, my road will be unknown
path to eternity, eternity lasts forever
light of day, day of darkness
I will never be trustfull again....
I am not for you, I am not for those
not for light, not for life
Farewell to sunlit world
on the dark side we will meet
we will meet again after life...
Time passes slowly
I fade away, life drained
what used to be, what could have been now
I feel no pleasure, only pain
I feed upon my fear of life
trapped in agony and despair
Anguish of the night
I will meet you again
on the other side..."

-My Dark Reflections Of Life And Death- Green Carnation 

THE ATHEIST

I am a Castaway ..(-|-)

Behind these glowing eyes

Hidden from everyone, all my lies

Many events that blocked my tears

The moments that I wasted my years

Life filled with unlimited pains

Soaking wet my deformed soul

Flaming my road to destination

Burning my skin with all vengeance

Slowly falling apart to pieces

Melting my heart to my feet

Alone in the dark street of fear

Heads turned away afraid to come near

But yet the last thing I’d see

Is the tears that flow from thee

That is the slow poison injected in me

I’d rather die if that makes you free

THE ATHEIST